Do you ever feel like you suck at work?
It’s not a foreign feeling that we feel from time to time. This happens when you fall behind something you’re supposed to do and the other person (client) is not happy with either your decisions or your actions or the lack of results.
And it feels like being a fraud, an impostor, a failure.
Recently, I’ve had this experience when there was a disconnect at work, and at the last minute; some things weren’t accomplished. And this made my client send out some not-very-pleasant news to me.
I felt sick, reading those and thought, did I really mess up this time? Did I really not provide value? Did I really fail them big time? Am I still worthy of working for them? Am I someone who other people can trust with their business? Am I just wasting their money and time?
It was something hard for me to swallow, really. Given that I know I did my part to make it happen. Yet it wasn’t enough.
So what do we do during these times of feeling like a failure?
Cry. Ignore. Laugh. Run.
I thought about all of those. And I did really cry. I was feeling sad the whole time and thought of even giving up. I know, failing is part of the process but quitting is not.
So after talking to myself, walking double the miles I needed for the day, crying a bucket of tears, speaking to my superwoman friends and support buddies, and having a whole lot of deep breaths, I got up and stepped one forward.
You see, there is no other way to go but to move one step forward. Just one small step forward. Picking oneself up is one hard task, yet it’s the only choice we have. We cannot stay where we are or else we stop living.
I know you feel this at one point in your life too. And this happens to most of us. It happens from time to time. We learn though, and we keep grounded, we keep going. That’s how it is.
Grateful for those who are there for me, always. I am here for you too.
So again, let’s go! One step forward. Quitting is not an option.
Love,
Goldie